Has the time come to retire my personal lab? I have had my own computer lab in my basement for well since we lived in Cincinnati Ohio which is now nearly 14 years ago. Lately I find that I don’t use it at all other than occasional as a toy to consider. I spend more time building and playing with solutions that have nothing to do with servers anymore.
Is it time to move on? I don’t know yet, but I suspect it is.
Letting go of my lab means letting go of a piece of myself. I don’t know that I am ready for that, yet.
I’ve been thinking a lot lately about the people who have influenced me over the past decades of my life. I have come to realize that the most important thing for me as a person is a feeling of loyalty, both to the person and from the person who is teaching/helping/guiding/following me. I am not sure why loyalty is such a huge thing for me. It isn’t that I am disloyal myself, I tend towards loyalty to the end regardless. Its that it has become critical to me. Probably because over the past few years I can say that a number of people I was loyal to, weren’t as loyal as I thought they were. I suspect that is more painful than I realized until I started thinking about it.
What concerns me today is that maybe I am on the wrong side of the battle. Not the 300 valiantly defending the last pass between their civilization and destruction but rather just one more body on the way to an inevitable end. Is loyalty something that matters anymore? Am I teaching my children a skill that in the end won’t matter anymore?
I hope not.